A Little Rant with a Little Raunch. Proceed with Caution

I am not sure what I was expecting as a teenager waiting to enter into adulthood but this is not it. It is a hell of a lot of work, with very little payout. We all know I am a glass half empty kind of girl or at best a realist, being positive is something I have had to work really hard at. But the last two years have taken me from a glass half empty to a quarter filled glass kind of girl on a good day, to a who the hell stole my glass on bad days. 

As most of you know my health is in a constant state of flux, we have found good doctors but I have made the decision to stop seeking help from traditional western medicine. They always have another test they need to run and any “cures” they offer have side effects that can be just as bad. Not to mention we live in the great old United States of America where my health is a for profit business. If you are lucky you have health insurance you pay for monthly with high deductibles and ridiculous copays. Where through no fault of your own someone who doesn’t have adequate car insurance can injure you leaving you with astronomical lifelong medical bills. So I have to make a choice drive my family into huge debt in hopes that something might help or to stop the insanity. I chose to stop, I chose to not send my family into more debt for my health. I chose instead to spend my time and money on making fun memories, not funding more doctors. I have one doctor who is able to control most of my issues with meds and an alternative practitioner who has helped tremendously at half of the cost that is all I need at this time. 

So how does a girl find the positive in all of this, well this girl makes lists of all the things that she couldn’t do as a kid but can do as an adult that makes it all worth it.  

1. I can say no and no one can make me do something if I really don’t want to. 

2. I can watch Rated R movies.

3. I can listen to raunchy music and no one can make me turn it off.

4. I don’t have to go to church.

5. This is a hard list I can’t find a lot of benefits to being an adult. 

6. SEX, that makes being an adult worth it. I am a Scorpio after all so of course this would make the list.

So after looking back over what I have written it can be said that the only real benefit to being an adult is SEX! I can live with that. 

Now for a little raunchy music.



Oh and I don’t have to apologize if you find this offense.  LOL

4 thoughts on “A Little Rant with a Little Raunch. Proceed with Caution

  1. Hi Michelle~

    I love this post (well, the music ain’t exactly my fave, but that’s just cuz I’m not a real ‘pop’ music person). You are so blessed. I gotta say, if you need any reminding– I sort of need reminding a lot myself– that the body’s job is to HEAL & that is what it does best, all the time. Endless reserves of healing. That’s how humans are built & we just gotta support that process however we can & you are doing it so beautifully & graciously. I have such admiration for you, I hope you know.

    I hope you feel totally supported in your decisions, too. Feeding the medical ‘machine’ is such an interesting politik. Did I ever tell you how much money our dear Zach owed for the hospital visit a year before he died? He spent that last year working so hard to pay off even a small portion of that tremendous debt (including $140k for the little helicopter ride from Newport to Corvallis, believe it or not). So, when Arden wanted to buy Zach’s little old (’98) Toyota Tercel from David last year, David said that he could have it rather than buy it, since if he sold it, any money would have to go to the creditors. And he just couldn’t justify doing that. So he GAVE Arden the car, which happens to be our main ride these days! 40mpg on the highway & Arden has all of Zach’s tools & a whole lot of wrench-twisting knowledge that Zach shared. Such brothers they were.

    So, me & Arden are good, mostly in Portland, but really wanna be back on the coast. Me for sanity reasons, him for work reasons. Both of us because this floating home has to sell sometime soon here & it is damn challenging to live in a place & simultaneously keep it pristine for showings. Not such a horrible thing, having a house for sale! I am grateful!! I see us moving forward with our lives; with the sale of this house it will be slightly easier to do.

    Meanwhile, I am putting it out there, also since I know that you have a larger circle of people than I do, even if you have made that circle necessarily smaller in recent times . . .

    Do you know of anyone/anyplace coastal where we could rent a room for reasonable?

    [&/or for partial work exchange or help around a place? Maybe someone who needs a handy-person, organizing, computer help, maintenance help, fix-it help, care-taking, the list goes on]

    And, hey, please feel free to post this to any fb anything since somebody out there wants this house, we just gotta connect with them:


    Thanks for thinkin’ on it, Michelle!

    LOVE & healing light to you & yours,


    • What happened with Zach should be criminal, it is heartbreaking! I don’t know if anyone is of need but I will for sure post on Facebook and Twitter. Much love to you and Arden!

  2. Well put…..isn’t it a shame we put so many years into what every one else wants. You rock!!! And I would say you have changed your perspective to the glass being almost full—hopefully your health will reflect that. You know I adore you.

    Barb C

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